I need to start writing about things that made me happy each day. So here's a start...and let's hope for many more.

One of my guy friends told me today that when he has his bachelor party, he will invite me. In a weird way, I was really touched by that. It is an honor to be considered one of the guys.

Then more smiles came along. 

Teaching someone to video chat on the phone. Even though I had a couple emotional diarrheas, he actually handled it quite well and didn't get disgusted. Then there's the sharing of how awesome it is to eat animals. When the darker side of me comes out, a nudge with a large cotton swab will be used "gently" so that I won't be in pain. I've never had anyone watch me eat before while that person is not doing anything. 

"even better let's both try not to get hurt"

I like that. 

Am I feeling more positive energy in my life? 

never thought i had to, but i have to.

what is the point of trying so hard to make something work. hoping something will work. when deep down, you know there's no compatibility there. 

why am i not looking at compatibility? 

once compatibility is there, do you try hard to make it work then? what if it seems like it's impossible. everyone thinks it's impossible.

not compatible, right place.

compatible, wrong place.

life just wants me to hit all the combination before i settle down. or...maybe i'm not meant to settle down. 

what if, i'm just meant for greater things in life. love is just not one of them.