That was pretty much my reaction yesterday when I was introduced to his uncle and uncle's family as his girlfriend. Yes, it's Chinese New Years...plus I was with his family...and he said I was his girlfriend.

It was the first time I heard him calling me his girlfriend. So "oh...ok" is a pretty normal reaction. Of course, I didn't show that when I was introduced...had to be natural.

He's done quite a lot for me, he's allowing himself be a big part of my life, and he's letting me get to know his family (who are all great people actually). Is it safe to let down my guard again?

I saw something I wish I didn't see. I'm too curious sometimes, so I would pry...why am I doing this to myself? Everything was dandy until my curiosity killed me.

I guess I am more willing to hurt myself than being left in the dark. The truth must be seeked out.

Anyways, during this down time...I did receive a phone call by surprise yesterday. It was him. It felt really nice because it was just a random call. He was in my town and called to see what I was doing.

Thank you...your call made my day brighter.

For me to feel that way about him is probably just as bad as the secret I came upon. Or maybe...I'm worse.

Cherish. In Chinese, it's 珍惜 (zhen xi), and trust me, it sounds more beautiful in Chinese.

Let's talk about the biggest complaint in my past relationships. Okay, maybe not the biggest, but it bothered me...a lot.

Many, many times...I felt like my boyfriend only wanted to be with me for sex. When he was with me, he would ask for sex. Yes, in a way, I can understand that guys are horny and they need to get it out of their system...but it made me feel not very special. On top of asking me a lot for sex, they don't really pay attention to my needs. I wanted someone to look out for me. I didn't ask because things are just better received without being asked. It's not like I wanted specific things...just needed actions from him to let me know he cared. Asking for sex a lot and not taking the intiative to make me feel special...not very good.

Also, I think it's also my fault. We were too intimate. All the hugging and kissing whenever we saw each other. Eventually...they grew old. Yes, hugs and kisses become a routine. It's a sad truth, but we all must admit - it does become that way.

All the cute behaviors, lovey dovey things we did to each other...I believe they're the reasons that our relationships didn't last. We didn't cherish each other enough. We jumped in...grabbed everything...and engulfed them. Things we should do for 10 years, we did them in 3...

One of my exes' mother said this to him. 來日方長 - There will be more days to come for us. We didn't listen...we lived in the moment.

But you know what good came out of that? A love that we'll all remember...because love is like fireworks (based on song lyrics in Taiwan)...they are very beautiful, but they last only for a while (very short while).

We've had our fireworks...now it's time for us to find something that will last longer.

I would probably fall for him.

That sounds tempting, but I'm happy where I am for now.

You shouldn't be a backup. I think you're better than a backup. But many things depend on fate. If we meet down the road eventually, I will be happy to be with you.

I met someone who I think will be perfect for me, but we haven't connected in a way that makes our relationship more than friends. There were moments though...but they're not enough to push us together. It's a complicated thing to explain...but he is a great guy.

I posted this in Chinese for Helen.

"It's normal for guys to be deceitful, but when a friend commits that same crime, it's unforgiveable."

It's hilarious in Chinese.

男人賤正常, 朋友賤不可原諒.

that is true for my 2008 resolution: don't get wasted in 2008 (or only get wasted once in 2008).

yesterday was our company's end-of-the-year luncheon in china, and i was WASTED. yes, as in i lost four hours of my life. the lunch started around noon, and when i woke up, it was already 8pm. whoa...what happened in between? i think i remember the first three hours...just eating and drinking...and drinking...and drinking. we had a lot of chinese version of vodka (38% alcohol vol.). the weirdest thing is...my dad was the one who carried me back to the hotel. yea, my dad saw me drunk for the first time. see, at least i wasn't molesting workers...that would have been bad. yes, drunken alice can actually control herself if needed. let's just hope i didn't do anything else stupid.

ok...so this can't happen again for the remaining 11 months. go alice go!

Random #1

from a blog:

"If I have a daughter, I wouldn't talk to her that way.
But, why did you have to talk to me that way?"

This makes me really thankful that my dad actually respects me. Daddy appreciation here. He does work very hard for Helen and me...and I want to keep him happy.

Random #2

It has always been so hard for me to say "I love you."

If I have said it, I am not sure if I even meant it. It was probably just an urge to say it.

So if I can't say I love you, then I shouldn't expect you to tell me that either.

If I am right, your "I like you" is pretty much my "I love you." Am I right?

Random #3

Full of hope. Challenges. Nervous. Pressure, but just what I need. 2008 will be different. I may get what I want, but I will probably lose some from that gain. Who knows. Time to fly.

Over a dinner with beer...two big bottles of beer, my dad and I had a chat.

Dad: I don't get it. Which one do you like?
I thought he was talking about the pork and beef meat on the grill...because I've been alternating at eating them.
Me: Ummm...I like them both...I just eat them as I go.
Dad: No, I'm talking about boys. You were with Quan, then you broke up, and then he visited you in Taiwan. I'm just seeing you with different guys. Aren't you planning to get married?
Me: What?
Dad: Do you have a boyfriend? Everyone is asking me and I don't know how to answer.
Me: Dude, just tell them I'm single...no boyfriend.

Okay, I can summarize the rest. I thought my dad wanted me to stay single forever and just concentrate on the company...but I guess he does care. He wants me to be happy and find someone who will make me happy. He even told me to not find someone like him. He is a bad example of the kind of guy I should marry. He won't care about the guy's background or wealth, but he needs to have the ability to take care of me and make me happy. It was so nice to hear him say all that because I did think he would want the guy I marry to be wealthy or successful. It's good to see my dad being so open-minded unlike the rest of my aunts and uncles...who all think boyfriends of mine are just after my money. Yes, shallow...very shallow. Shame on them.

I'll be 25 this year...there's still time...I have time to look around. No rush.

Just finished Day 1 at CES in Las Vegas. Pretty good day...and hope the remaining 3 days will be just as good, if not, better! My dad was a superman for driving all the way to Vegas from Suisun...while I slept 90% of the way...I only had 2.5 hours of sleep prior to the drive down. It's our first time at the Hilton Pavilion...but things are good. Next year, we are getting a larger booth back at Sands Expo...yes, we signed the contract early this year. So...yay for a great year!

Ok...time for some sleep.

Goodbye 2007.

Although I didn't like 2007 too much, but I did end it with a good note. I spent the last few days of 2007 with my greatest friends and family.

27th: Flew back to the U.S. with Helen and we met up with friends that night for dinner and movie (Juno).

28th: Shopped in SF with Helen and picked my dad up at the airport. Pho for the first time in...I don't know how long...but yeah, Pho in the U.S. is soooo much better than Pho in Taiwan. Taiwan's pho sucks.

29th: WAFFLE Annual Xmas Gathering!!! Breakfast at Denny's, Secret Santa Exchange, White Elephant at Danny's house, scary movie (Shutter), Uno Spin, dinner at Brian's (yummy fresh lumpia & shark fin soup), Taboo, Cin's co-worker's bday party in Vacaville. Yup, definitely an eventful day. So much fun...and that makes me glad that we're all still friends. I got a shirt and a necklace from The Limited from my secret santa- Anthony. Awww...he shopped at a girl's store for me and picked out the shirt all on his own. I felt special. Thanks Anthony!!!

WAFFLE Xmas 2007

30th: A day at home with my dad, then dinner with Cin and her parents at Stinking Rose...yay for a fun night out in SF.

31st: Sharon came home from the east coast and we celebrated New Years together. We were doing the Century Club - 100 shots of beer in 100 minutes...yup, Joy and I are now officially in this club! Cindy and Helen are in the Half-Century Club...Cin took the first 50, Helen finished it off. They had excuses - Cin had work the next day and Helen was sick. It was a buzzin' night with a few embarassing moments...haha.

New Year 2008

For New Years, Sharon, Helen, my dad, my uncle and I watched National Treasure: Book of Secrets in Fairfield, then we went to Tahoe Joe's for dinner. Good movie and good food...so therefore, a good day.

Happy 2008 Everyone...!!